So, during my spring cleaning all day today, I was repeatedly finding things that I had written.....Lots of the ideas still relevant today! The one thing that I found though that struck me to my core was several little pages of me freestyling on a hotel resorts notepad in Negril, Jamaica, while I was on the beach.......I felt so compelled in my spirit to share this with all of the women whose shoes I was once standing in..... "To See Or Not To See" Summer 2010 Sand acting as a natural exfoliant and taking away all the old dead cells as it removes also the old from my life bringing in the new. I asked myself this Question: Which weigh heavier? Watching lovers and having no lover OR Watching lovers and missing your lover? Cathartic experience embodying the purging of one's old life for one's new life. Grown up indeed, in experience more than anything but having a more mature app
I always say that, everyone has a story.....they just don't take the initiative to write it down. All my shit is already written down, I started when I was graduating from Girls High in 90' and never stopped until maybe when I was 39 or 40. I've got over 1,000 written pages easy! I just have to sit down and put this shit in some kinda order. I have so much material, I probably have about 3 or 4 books total. I think I got over the fear of people knowing about my run after my 1st magazine article was published. When in essence, I started to write just to share the crazy shit that happened to me and around me, for entertainment....... And then, as the years went on, I realized all of it could actually help other girls/women that were in that same space! Initially, it was all fun and games. I was considered pretty spoiled growing up and so my first relationship with a dealer was when I was in 10th grade. He was part of the JBM from Uptown. I actually loved the idea of being abl