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4/06/07

Lord, if today is my last day on this earth and you were to take me in my sleep, I am overjoyed with what I know of you!!!!!

Sin not only separates us from God but it also dims the light in our spirit! One night I went out and ended up in a drunken state and made myself sick for two days afterward. Once I began to feel physically better, I still felt under the weather in my spirit. Then it dawned on me, that when we do things to damage the flesh intentionally, such as becoming drunk, it also tampers with our spirituality. I realized that not only did my body need time to recuperate and become sober but that it actually took my spirit longer to sober up longer than it did my body. My spirit needs to be sober to be able to receive the grace that God is willing to offer us when we turn away from Him. Glory be to God for saving us and also accepting us as we are in out fallen state.

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